It's been donkey years since I last blogged. Ok, maybe it wasn't that long, just one and a half week ago. I wasn't in the mood, I'm sure most bloggers go through this kind of period before...no mood, no blog.

My work sucks, my health sucks, my family sucks, everything is going downhill. Everyday I wake up feeling tired of life. Of course I don't mean I have suicidal thoughts, it's just that no matter how much I rest, I still end up feeling tired. Maybe it's due to my poor health or perhaps it could be because I'm unhappy.

Actually I am quite angry with myself for being such a weakling. Everyone faces problems everyday. Instead of facing them bravely, I ended being a cry baby. Instead of staying positive, I ended up blaming my luck and everything else. I know I shouldn't punish myself for the wrongdoings committed by others. But sometimes, things are easier said then done. I can preach but to act, that's a different thing.

It's a difficult period but not the worst in my life. I'm confident things will get better. When? I don't know but it will get better. I'm glad I still have Thomas although he's away till end of the month but he's one of the reason I am still hanging on.

Win, if you happen to be reading this...just wanna tell you that I know things are not turning out right for you too. Stay positive. Think of the problems you encountered and how you resolved them. This time, it will be the same. If you could solve your previous problems, you CAN get out of the mess you are in now.

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